Im quiet, and he is sitting in the corner of the bed as he watch a movie.
As i gaze at him, I never felt so excited. Have never been this excited before. I had been married once but I didnt have this feelings then.
it is his first time, and I wonder what is in his mind.
we fixed the papers and applications. we went to the Swedish Tax Office and applied for Marriage License and Family name for me. God is good that even though it was very quick, life had changed me. the moment of being a wife and getting involved in a wedding that you really really wanted. There's lot of couples who get wed without the real love in their hearts and I believe that getting married is not easy... well thats according to my experience...i love good memories of everyday, and those are the things that each of us carry for the rest of our lives.
I am glad that Benny gives me good memories, he treat me well. I feel his love, his respect and patience. I might not be a perfect women for everybody but in his eyes I am beautiful, and thats all that matters to me.
I have learned how to adjust myself in his culture and have learned to speak out my mind whenever I have some questions. I want to know him and I have learned more that by speaking to him even about non-sense things makes us closer together.
If you would ask about money, well.... He is not rich, no big account.. He is a simple guy with a regular work as a nurse-aid in an elderly home. He walks his shoe for years and never by new all the time.His shirts are few and his pants I can count too. His sports is at gym and his nest is a tiny apartment.
His eyes looks at me with his hazel eyes, mesmerized as he gaze at me and I stare at him wondering what did he see in me. i am not particularly beautiful either, well, I am sexy I must admit..hahhaha I am cute they say, ...kind, friendly, well thats positive... a word keeps rotating in my mind '' I have never been in this particular Love affair '' I love the way he holds me, it feels like its not enough with one embrace. it lifted me up and it feels like home in his arms. I feel so good inside my heart that I can almost swell in his kindness and love.
And God is to be praised that THE GIFT had come my way to stay forever....
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