Our Preparations...

Our wedding is simple one... held in the City Hall..

Our programs I suppose, are amazing too...

Whole bed of Wed stuff...

Prizes to be given away under the Wedding Program

Bride's Pearl and crown...

the Grooms.... Costume suit, white polo, clock and shoes... hhhmm..
more to put on I suppose...

I could not imagine myself this way before....

looking at the crown and pearls... 

Some captions that are important to remember

This is the engagement ring I received from Benny and a verse beside..
tHIS IS THE BIBLE VERSE FROM KING SOLOMON

Preparation for the Upcoming event

Im quiet, and he is sitting in the corner of the bed as he watch a movie.
As i gaze at him, I never felt so excited. Have never been this excited before. I had been married once but I didnt have this feelings then.
 it is his first time, and I wonder what is in his mind.
we fixed the papers and applications. we went to the Swedish Tax Office and applied for Marriage License and Family name for me. God is good that even though it was very quick, life had changed me. the moment of being a wife and  getting involved in a wedding that you really really wanted. There's lot of couples who get wed without the real love in their hearts and I believe that getting married is not easy... well thats according to my experience...i love good memories of everyday, and those are the things that each of us carry for the rest of our lives.
I am glad that Benny gives me good memories, he treat me well. I feel his love, his respect and patience. I might not be a perfect women for everybody but in his eyes I am beautiful, and thats all that matters to me.

I have learned how to adjust myself in his culture and have learned to speak out my mind whenever I have some questions. I want to know him and I have learned more that by speaking to him even about non-sense things makes us closer together.

If you would ask about money, well.... He is not rich, no big account.. He is a simple guy with a regular work as a nurse-aid in an elderly home. He walks his shoe for years and never by new all the time.His shirts are few and his pants I can count too. His sports is at gym and his nest is a tiny apartment.

His eyes looks at me with his hazel eyes, mesmerized as he gaze at me and I stare at him wondering what did he see in me. i am not particularly beautiful either, well, I am sexy I must admit..hahhaha I am cute they say, ...kind, friendly, well thats positive... a word keeps rotating in my mind '' I have never been in this particular Love affair '' I love the way he holds me, it feels like its not enough with one embrace. it lifted me up and it feels like home in his arms. I feel so good inside my heart that I can almost swell in his kindness and love.

And God is to be praised that THE GIFT had come my way to stay forever....

Sunday Service

It is amazing that the days go by so quickly. it was just few months ago when we were just chating.. dating and it was not long tme ago since we were dating. I am amazed by everyday we spent together.
Today we went to a sunday worship service and at the end of the service is a birthday party of my children's godmother. Benny and I went there to participate. It was a cowboy costume party and we ate some Halo-halo..its a different mixes of seasonal fruits and flakes then topped with crushed ice and evaporated milk. it was very delicious...and I see  benny liked it... :)

Love is growing more each day

I am amazed everyday I wake up beside Benny. And I know exactly how he feels for me. I could see it in his eyes how much I meant to him. All this years, I've never felt that attention. The way he looks at me makes me feel I got the whole world. I felt delusional sometimes because I still cannot believe this is happening to me.
I feel so loved..  And every morning he wake up,  I know that he stares at me. And he gently kiss my lips and tell me I am his everything. I feel my morning are very powerful and full of hope beside him. And I feel more energetic about how God bless us in a very mysterious way.
I am glad that he love me for me. And I love him as he is. For my eyes, he is the most handsome and sexy man I know. My heart beats and my soul is glad that my kids even like him. And he loves my children.
We promised each other that we will try to comfort each other and be strong no matter what happens in life. That we will try to love and respect each other in all circumstances that we meet.

I am just feeling a bit sad because I couldn't give him a child anymore. My womb is already operated and I am ligated. It's closed forever. I can't bear a child. I wish I could bring back my decision, but I still believe in miracles..  I know in God's perfect timing, a child will come in our arms. I know..

I am living life looking forward to the days that we will build together.. I'm glad we found each other.. I'm glad it didn't work with our past because it has taught us so much to be really perfect for each other. I'm happy every morning of my wakening, I'm satisfied for my daily.. And we believe God will always take care of us and my children  and all our families.. God is our refuge and strength..